I'm sure you've seen some version of the "cardboard testimonies" done in churches all over the country. I'll post a link, if you don't know what I mean. Cardboard Testimonies Ever since I saw my first of those videos I've contemplated what my cardboard testimony would be. Truly, I've been stumped. Not in an "I'm just that perfect" kind of way, but in a "what kind of dramatic change has happened to me" kind of way. It actually makes me sad that I can't think of anything right away. Maybe I'm not being contemplative enough. Maybe I'm not being honest with myself. Maybe I'm not giving God enough credit. Would I actually wish for something "major" so that I have a story - sometimes, yes. But my husband often reminds me of the blessing of a good life and the blessings that often flow from good decisions. And then I'm tempted to steel myself for the crash in the future. But that's not holding my faith to be true. Why should I expect a good God to have a painful plan for me? I don't mean I expect things to forever be easy. I want to truly trust God is already in the future and waiting to support me no matter what happens.

So what would my sign say? I'm convinced I would need two signs, one for myself and one for my view of others. For now I concentrate only one. I have a feeling every one's signs would change over time. As our lives continue and we experience new challenges and analyze old memories and we see things in a different light. However, for me, right now, I've had a week of deep contemplation. I've felt sobered by the thoughts I've been analyzing. God has spoken over and over this week to me of my worth. The first side of my sign would say, "2 decades of believing Satan's lies of worthlessness". I'm not sure what the second side would say yet, but today I believe I would write, "Filled with God's Value". It's vague, I know. That's where I'm at now. I guess I know the first side well because I've identified it. I'm still working on the second side. I feel it, but I'm still working on belief. For now, I know I'm immensely thankful to God for creating me to be a person of worth. I'm thankful for the ways he's communicated that to me in the past few days. And, I'm thankful for the people He continues to place in my path. Thankful for their example, and their words, and their persistence, and their willingness to listen to God's prodding to be my friend, and their willingness to walk along side me (sometimes walk behind me and push!) God is good. I'll continue to keep listening for my "second side".